stand out from the crowd

okay so I planned on getting up at like 9.30, but instead i woke up at 7..

and I only have to be at school at 11.35..

this is not cool people, I now am freakishly tired. :<

and the best part is, I have my english oral exam to look forward to!

isn't that just great?

it's about 1984 of course, which is in fact quite interesting.

the "hidden themes", such as psychological manipulation are very interesting.

I looked up tactics dictators use (yes I did the research myself) and I must say I'm actually quite impressed and stunned. these are techniques great leaders are still using my dear friends! yes, be afraid.. :)

but the thing I think is most related to our current society,

is "the power of suggestion". so basically the fact that people are willing to believe almost anything, as long as it's written down/told by a reliable person.

or let me put it this way: "When using suggestion the right way, one can make black appear white." So, creating memories out of thin air.

quoting: "The past was erased, the erasure was forgotten, the lie became truth."

oh don't we all need a dose of profound phrases every once in a while? I know I do!

I don't know why but I'm starting to feel like some sort of mental coach, like I'm trying to teach you guys something. Well I'm not, don't worry. :) I'm nothing like that, I'm just outspoken. And I just have my own view on today's society. 

people tell me I'm different, because I dress and act in a certain way. Honestly I don't think I'm really that different at all, I just think lots of people (of course not everyone! but you know how that shit works, sometimes you just have to exaggerate a little to make your story seem powerful) are the same, or at least dressing and acting the same. I guess they do this in order to "fit in", but, I mean, is that for real? Do you really have to act like you're someone else in order to make friends these days? Why would you want to be friends with someone who wants you to be someone you're not in the first place?! and I don't know about you guys, but I'd rather be friends with someone who has their own way of living than with someone who just imitates your footsteps all fucking day long. 

Oh and don't worry, I won't dull you with this sort of stuff all the time, it's just that once I start, it's hard to shut me up. 

And because I don't want you to think that I'm talking about everyone, I'll tell you right now that I, fortunately, know lots of people who do their own thing. And I love them for that! :) 

<3 

(or as my friend L. calls us: "angelpie, honeypie and cupcake". blows your mind doesn't it?)

for those who have heart

I'll be subtle, and not use any names.
but I'm so sick of those boys and girls out there, who are so fucking narcissistic that they can't even tell the difference between having fun with "no strings attached" and tearing someone apart.
I see my friends suffer every day, I see them smile and act like they're fine. But I'm not blind, they used to be so much happier.. and I seriously hate the guys who are causing that.. I wish I was aloud to tell those guys how fucking pissed they make me, but my friends forbid me to. And they're right, it's none of my business.
But it's just so hard to watch your friends suffer and not being able to do anything to help.


So, boys and girls, if you are afraid of commitment, need your space or anything in that area (you name it), don't make someone else suffer from your flaws and fears.
They are people who deserve to be loved, because they love.
they actually love you, and if you don't love them back, tell them.


spill your guts


okay that was my story, I just had to write it down for once, cause it's been haunting me for months now.


spread the love <3

I believe in you

Here's a quick and short dedication to my amazing boyfriend, whom I love with all my heart. I can't wait for him to hold me in his safe arms again. Just another 17 days to go, and he'll be back from Canada after 6 months.
He puts the color inside of my world. Our unconditional love gives me hope.
<3

I can't help but whine, are we there yet?!

Okay so let me introduce myself.
I'm Zosha. (For those of you who care, it's russian. And no, I'm not russian. I'm dutch :x)
Amsterdam's my home, well actually I don't currently live here, but it's the place I was born and the place I consider my home. and I'll make sure to move my ass back over there as soon as I possibly can!


I'd like to dedicate this blog to my dear friend, N.
She made me do this, and yes honey, I did it! Just for you. (:
I hope you're happy now. <3
now let's just wait and see how often I'll post something on here.


can't wait for the holidays to start, those days where you wake up and think "which day of the week is it anyway?!".
gotta love summer (:


spread the love people. <3