Saturday, October 30

welcome to ambiguity

Dear no one, 
I'm sorry I've been neglecting you.


So why have I been neglecting my "oh-so-popular" blog? because I've been busy. busy doing what?
traveling the world (or just visiting Paris for 2 days),  studying and many other spectacular, adventurous things.
no, that's a lie, I didn't do anything else.


I really don't know what to say, my brain doesn't allow me to be creative and focused at the same time. Really, those books are sucking the little creativity I have outta me.


though I do think paris is worth mentioning, because paris was awesome and he was awesome and our anniversary celebration was awesome and well, awesomeness?

and no, this entry is not meant to entertain you, to intrigue you or to add something to your life. it's rather an inconsiderable, unimportant gathering of words and frustration. if you're looking for inspiration, deep thoughts or anything else for that matter: you will not find it here.


but, in order to add some content to this so called "story", here are some words of wisdom.


"Without continual growth and progress, such words as improvement, achievement and success have no meaning." - Benjamin Franklin



meaning; I should return to my lovely books
...
I love my life. :)

Sunday, October 17

me likey

I like inspirational people I like how he loves me in spite of the mistakes I make I like making people smile I like how I see through their lies I like being with the ones I love I like my bed for always being there when I'm deadly tired I like discovering random stuff I like honesty I like the sound of his voice I like having a handful of people I can always count on I like how we misjudge things I like spending my hard earned money I like having control over certain things I like the mysteries of life I like sharing my thoughts I like sarcasm I like how excruciating pain fades over time I like adventure I like positive change I like unexpected turns I like nonsense I like listening to songs that hold memories I like how you always manage to make me smile I like standing out I like offering help to those who need it I like it when those who left return for christmas I like him for being so likable I like it when my parents buy me stuff I like how he's not only my boyfriend but also my best friend I like how the things that don't kill you only make you stronger I like discovering who my true friends are  I like how a Finnish guy is making my best friend as happy as she deserves to be I like my morning cigarette I like caffeine for energizing me I like discussions about serious issues I like discussions about non-essential hoo-ha I like the wonder that love is I like sincere gestures that make me cry I like how one moment can change everything



I like realizing just how much there is to like out there. (:




Wednesday, October 6

save the lies

what people often don't realize, is that I am not retarted. they think that, because I'm only 17 years old, I can't tell when they lie, keep things from me, withhold the truth (which I think is the same as lying) and all other related options.
it's such a shame.


I ask, they tell their story. the story is a complete setup, carefully thought through. yet what they don't realize, is that there's always a catch. lies contain certain flaws. either parts of the story don't make any sense, or the liar behaves in the most unconvincing way. those flaws may not be visible to us all, but I most certainly see them. especially people I know cannot tell me a decent lie, one worth believing.


I don't mean to sound boastful (because I'm not into braggery after all). but it's just something I learned to observe over the last few years. of course there are people that are so good at lying that I won't be able to tell the difference between "true" and "false", and of course there are certain people I love so intensively that I want to believe them even though I know I shouldn't. But the thing I'm trying to explain to you here is that I hate lies. and the kind of lies I'm referring to right now are obviously not white lies, but major lies.
like when someone lies to you when you absolutely deserve to know the truth.


so my point is, well, I don't really have a a point actually.
my heart goes out to those of you that know how important the truth is, and that lies actually only make things worse. you start with one lie, but to hold on to that lie you often have to tell another lie, which means you'll end up in this huge web of lies. and you have to remember every part, because otherwise your entire "wall of lies" (I prefer to say wall of shame.. because I think it's shameful) may break down.


so dear dear people,
spread the honesty for your own sake. <3


quoting: "the naked truth is always better than the best dressed lie"