change is a magical thing

hello dear people, it most certainly has been a while!
and I'm not even gonna try to justify myself, cause i have absolutely no good reason for not posting anything. but i figured that no one would actually care, so I modified my own level of "careness" to "not caring". oh that does sound pretty mean, but I, of course, still love all of you.

well school just started about a week ago, and so far, it has been exhausting as FUCK. or maybe I'm tired because I really need to catch up on my sleep, but I prefer blaming school over my active party-life. shit went down, shit changed, shit was unexpected. But yeah that happens from time to time, you realize that you're letting go of things/people, and holding on to new, exciting things. it hurts to let go of the past, but I think that we're better off that way. it only changed or went away because it wasn't strong enough to survive.. so I don't even bother trying to hold on to the people that are slipping away from me, it costs so much energy. energy that I basically just don't have or want to waste.
"and that my friend, is what I like to call, C-L-O-S-U-R-E"


but on the other side, I am proud to say that there are things I am very happy about! reconnecting with friends, working on school... I mean yes, I hate the fact that school has been a part of me for so long and yes I sometimes do feel like not doing any homework, but I also want to graduate. it's the last and final year, and it would be such a waste to screw it up now.. we've come so far, we will make it til the very end!

but I seriously have to go to bed now, because I slept for about an hour during the weekend. yes it's my fault and no I don't give a care! we had fun, we did not sleep, IT WAS WORTH IT!


cheers! <3