Sorry folks, I've been neglecting you once again. It's just that my mind seems so occupied lately. I've been sick all week, and I still feel pretty messed up. All the stuff I should have done, well.. I didn't do them.
you see, I have lots of obligations, and normally I appear to handle them pretty well. But right now I just feel like I'm not in control anymore, like it's impossible for me to accomplish something.
but today I decided it's time for a change. because my list of chores is getting longer and I'm ready to catch up. It will involve lots of studying, lots of writing and lots of precious time, but I'm willing to make the sacrifice.
and yes, I also realize that I'm not really aware of the beautiful things in life anymore. And I find appreciation really important, so that is something I don't enjoy. Hence the title.
I'm not saying I will make it work,
but I'm willing to give it a try.
Friday, November 26
Monday, November 15
TGI... Monday?
"monday is the day of the week between sunday and tuesday" . (my mind, blown.)
this is probably the best definition of monday, as some of us define it as the second day of the week while others refer to it as the first day, that shitty day on which either school or work just started, facing another following 4 days full of stress and obligations.
Monday is a spectacular word if you ask me. I feel both shitty and excited on mondays, inquisitive to find out what will happen while apathetically realizing I'm already tired, while the week hasn't even started yet. (which means I see monday as the first day of the week, in case you didn't realize)
Though now that I think about it, maybe "spectacular" is not the right word to define mondays (I, sometimes, incline to exaggerate a little). Maybe incoherent, or abysmal, conflicted, despicable or contradictory ...
...
indefinable?
anyhow, mondays may seem indefinable to me, I bet that's not the case for everyone.
but one thing's for certain; they will always be there, whether we like it or not. (:
<3
this is probably the best definition of monday, as some of us define it as the second day of the week while others refer to it as the first day, that shitty day on which either school or work just started, facing another following 4 days full of stress and obligations.
Monday is a spectacular word if you ask me. I feel both shitty and excited on mondays, inquisitive to find out what will happen while apathetically realizing I'm already tired, while the week hasn't even started yet. (which means I see monday as the first day of the week, in case you didn't realize)
Though now that I think about it, maybe "spectacular" is not the right word to define mondays (I, sometimes, incline to exaggerate a little). Maybe incoherent, or abysmal, conflicted, despicable or contradictory ...
...
indefinable?
anyhow, mondays may seem indefinable to me, I bet that's not the case for everyone.
but one thing's for certain; they will always be there, whether we like it or not. (:
<3
Sunday, November 14
balderdash
prepare yourself for another sad and senseless entry... because I'm not really feeling the happy and "negligent" sphere just yet.
that's probably because I'm not feeling so happy myself. after studying my ass off for my exams (which actually paid off, thank god) I still feel exhausted and quite miserable. but I won't bore you with my current emotions, so I'm actually going to talk about something specific.
Often when people tell me about their problems, they tend to set boundaries before even trying. of course everyone has their rules and habits which are impossible to breach, but I often experience that things are not as 'black 'n white' as most of us tend to see them. I see rules as "relative", meaning: every rule has an exception.
So my point is basically that, sometimes, you should maybe go easy on the negativity and at least try to change your ways. because who knows, you might succeed.. if something's bothering you, what's wrong with giving "change" a chance? :)
oh dammit, I'm so uninspired lately, I'm so sorry you guys. you guys are so good at coming up with something and here I am, rambling on about the first thing that comes to mind. don't you have any tips for me? to get my "inspiration" back? because I'm really not feeling it.
<3
that's probably because I'm not feeling so happy myself. after studying my ass off for my exams (which actually paid off, thank god) I still feel exhausted and quite miserable. but I won't bore you with my current emotions, so I'm actually going to talk about something specific.
Often when people tell me about their problems, they tend to set boundaries before even trying. of course everyone has their rules and habits which are impossible to breach, but I often experience that things are not as 'black 'n white' as most of us tend to see them. I see rules as "relative", meaning: every rule has an exception.
So my point is basically that, sometimes, you should maybe go easy on the negativity and at least try to change your ways. because who knows, you might succeed.. if something's bothering you, what's wrong with giving "change" a chance? :)
oh dammit, I'm so uninspired lately, I'm so sorry you guys. you guys are so good at coming up with something and here I am, rambling on about the first thing that comes to mind. don't you have any tips for me? to get my "inspiration" back? because I'm really not feeling it.
<3
Monday, November 1
the lost case of a lost soul
for some reason, I feel like I'm missing out. I mean it feels alright, but just not complete. all I do these days is study and traveling back and forth between my mom and dad. and basically, it's just driving me crazy. I barely socialize with the people I care about most..
I miss my boyfriend, I miss my dearest friends and... something else I can't define..
having fun, experiencing new things and meeting new people.. and the one person I love doing that stuff with is SOOOO far away! I just miss her so much. her humor, her loveliness, how we always experience something new and exciting and.. well, everything else. so babe, if you're reading this; I'm really really REALLY looking forward to seeing you again next month.. you're the beeeest! I'M SO JEALOUS OF ENGLAND! and I do hope you realize that I won't let you go back after your short visit.. you'll just have to stay by my side. forever. :)
yeah, that's really all I have to say.. studying doesn't make me particularly creative, nor funny. :x
but do not worry, in a few days, things will get better.. and if not, I'll just have to live with zero readers. :D
I miss my boyfriend, I miss my dearest friends and... something else I can't define..
having fun, experiencing new things and meeting new people.. and the one person I love doing that stuff with is SOOOO far away! I just miss her so much. her humor, her loveliness, how we always experience something new and exciting and.. well, everything else. so babe, if you're reading this; I'm really really REALLY looking forward to seeing you again next month.. you're the beeeest! I'M SO JEALOUS OF ENGLAND! and I do hope you realize that I won't let you go back after your short visit.. you'll just have to stay by my side. forever. :)
yeah, that's really all I have to say.. studying doesn't make me particularly creative, nor funny. :x
but do not worry, in a few days, things will get better.. and if not, I'll just have to live with zero readers. :D
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