Any idea of what the heck you are going to do with me?
Unfortunately, I have to say no. I do not know what I am going to do with my life when thinking of the future. The near future, sure, I think about tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow. I think about my exams, which only leaves me feeling stressed and panicked. "Paranoid" and "tends to optimise" would describe me pretty well. Whatever it is I have to accomplish, I usually find a way to finish it. Once I start, there is no going back. I will reach the goal I set in advance. Normally though, procrastination is really hard for me to resist. So I end up doing everything in a few days. Or just twenty-four hours, leading into sleep deprivation.
However, considering the distant future, I have no idea what to expect. Who knows, maybe my hard work won't pay off, maybe I will have to do this all over again next year. - If so, I will never forgive myself.
Perhaps it will be rewarded. In that case, I will actually have to start a new life. A life full of question marks, full of hopes and fears.
I am so not ready for this.
Lord, I know the feeling.
ReplyDeleteSo do I.
ReplyDeleteDidn't you have a similar feeling when you finished primary school, or when you quit something else that was a large part of your life? You managed to get over that too, right?
Don't worry though, we'll get through it together.
Yeah but as I get older, I care more and more about those I love. It gets harder every time to leave everything and everyone behind..
ReplyDeleteAh well, we'll survive!