I hate regret. If only there was this little voice inside my head telling me to think things over. because I realized that I barely ever do that. my "I-don't-care" attitude makes me unworthy of many people whom I love with all my heart. It's just that I often refuse to realize just how much someone really means to me. After the many things I had to go through I became a real pessimist, love-wise.
the weirdest things is that I am, in my opinion, an affectionate person. I've never had trouble trusting nor loving someone, often even trusting the wrong people. But when I do find that special someone, the one person that's actually worth it all it seems like I just have to break them down. I blame, I hurt, I say things I don't mean.. it's like taking revenge, because I know that that one person will love me no matter what, so I decide to take out all my anger on them. my perfect little punching bag.
but that's temporary. after a while of getting hurt, they realize I'm nothing but trouble. I can be such a hypocrite. and I hate that.
what goes around comes around
Ahw, don't worry about it.
ReplyDeleteIf they can't handle your pain, they don't deserve your love. ;]
If you're absolutely certain that you can sometimes act that way, then now you can deal with it right? I personally can't really imagine you being that harsh but if you say you are then perhaps you can change things over from here on :]
ReplyDeleteSee that's the great thing of sharing thoughts, you might end up with some good advice. thanks, I will definitely work on it. (:
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