jar of fear

I could never tell you how much I miss the old you. The one I used to be so fond of, the person that was my hero and would never let me down. I could never tell you how much I miss those days, and how much I do not need you anymore. I could never tell you how furious I have been, how I have wished I never had  to look into your eyes again. I believe they resemble nothing but fear and evasion. All this time, you always believed you never left me behind, but you broke my ability to believe. You tore apart my ability to love and let people in. 

I could never let you in again, even though I know that's what you wish for. I forgave you for what you did, but I will never forget. I will never forget about what you left behind, I will never forget about all the consequences. You broke my heart, and that made me break the hearts of others. You made me fear love, instead of embrace it. And although I have been taught to confide in love again, I could never forgive you for doing so.