..but it will find you
I've always had trouble making decisions. whenever someone asks me "hey, what do you wanna do today?", I always find a way to make them choose. Not because I don't have a preference, but basically because I'd rather make them happy than enjoy the activity myself.
However, besides those relatively unimportant choices, I have even more trouble making major decisions. I never know what I want nor do I know what's best for me. I'm not a great planner; when I really want to do something, I go for it, without considering the possible consequences. Usually, this leads to nothing but trouble, meaning; someone gets hurt. whether that's me or someone I really care about. Yet sometimes, the outcome is rather surprising. I find something special, or something worth considering. This brings me back to the main topic - making decisions. Knowing I suck at that, you probably realize things only get more complicated.
The worst part is that I to tend ignore all the signs. Instead of making a life-altering decision, I prefer waiting around to see what happens. I know it's bad, but I just can't seem to change my ways. Sometimes it's just easier to stick with what you know, instead of giving up to experience something new.
Ignorance usually works. I discovered that by "pretending it's not there", I no longer have to fear the unknown. Until the moment comes when I realize that the problem is still there.. Hence the (sub)title.
"the greatest ignorance is to reject something you know nothing about"
so true.. <3
ReplyDeleteThat first paragraph, it's nothing to be ashamed of. You think about other people before thinking about yourself. In my eyes, that is one of the greatest virtues one can posses.
ReplyDeleteI'm not able to focus enough to fully understand the other parts right now, but I'll try to do that later on. ;]
yeaah well I agree! Though some people keep telling me to choose because they hate being the one to decide..
ReplyDeleteAnd that's okay, I'll wait. :)
If you don't want to make a life-altering decision, you are satisfied (or at least, not dissatisfied) with the way things are now. This, on it's own, is no problem at all. As long as it doesn't affect you or the people you care about in a significantly bad way. If it does, however, I can't give you a quick-fix for this.
ReplyDeleteAs for the last bit of your post, I think the biggest step is realizing it, which you have already done. When you realize your problems, you can figure out why they started (this may be difficult, depending on the situation), after which it should be relatively easy to solve.
I have no idea if this will help you in any way, but I just wasn't satisfied with any shorter comment. ;D
I read it all, but i'm not really as wise as Laurens above here and seeing that he did quite a good job regarding any advice i'll refrain from making a fool of myself...but rest assured that i read it and that i understand your situation (i hope) :P
ReplyDeleteon second thought i might do a post myself on this topic, but then i still won't be of any use to you...put on some music i guess? :]
Awe you guys are so sweet.
ReplyDeleteand thanks for the advice laurens, your suggestions are well appreciated!
and joram, thanks for trying, and I'm very curious to find out what your opinion is on this topic.. :)